Midnari

1. More Focus, the ability to do shit that you normally wouldn't want to do (And for guys with ADHD, that makes things nearly impossible. We've the ability to see a much larger picture, and a memory for things we enjoy (IE: English and History for myself) but when it comes to shit we don't like... Forget about it.)

2. Loss of appetite. I should note, that this is a benefit to myself while it might not be to other people. I've lost about 20 pounds in less than a month, I haven't stopped eating, but I'm not actually hungry anymore. After I take my medication, I honestly lose all appitite and I'll have to actually push myself to get some food. To me, that means less calories, more water, no fast food, and very few sodas in comparison to before. I'd state that, by the end of Feb, I may very well be down to 170 pounds depending on how often we'll be doing PT this next month. 

3. Loss of Sexual Desire. Now, this, for me, was a huge one. I'm not going to get too personal with it, but I will say a lot of things I did was due to a large amount of lust that would completely destroy most reasonable thoughts from my head until it was sated. My mind was, if I was with my significant other, I needed a bit of lay at least once each day. That, of course, did not happen. That wasn't a very great state of mind to be in, it may have been due to ADHD, or maybe I've just got a naturally powerful libido. Either way, I haven't really even looked at porn since I've started taking the medication. Indeed, probably the biggest positive of it all. 

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4. I forget this one... Hyperactivity has lessened. When I'm under the influence of this medication (Unless some event has severely pissed me off to the point of hunting them down and killing them for fucking with my family *cough*) I do stay fairly even. By fairly even, my voice rarely raises to any real degree other than normal speech, I don't jump up and do something completely inpulsive and random, and finally... I, er, I don't walk as fast. Now, that last portion might not seem 'WOW' but you need to realize that when I go somewhere, I'll take two steps at a time, I'll fly down the stairs, I'll walk at a near jogging pace to wherever I go, and I'll drive several miles over the speed limit when I'm not paying attention. This is due to a -need- to get to wherever I'm going right -then.- Hell, I'm known to drive short distances on base, or was, I don't really even do that anymore. 

In essence, I no longer rush to my destination and I take it at a leisurely pace (Unless I need to pee. In which case, get the fuck out of my way.)
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Cons.

1. Insomnia. Now, this actually isn't an issue with myself because I've -never- slept with any type of schedule. I'd sleep when I sleep and I'd wake when I wake. Obviously, due to my job, I'm almost always up by 5:30 on the weekdays but there are times, like tonight, that I might wake up before 12' clock... Though, I'm slightly annoyed because I was woken by a person that went to sleep right after texting me. That was some BS, man. Wake me up and then you go to sleep. D< But nah, no serious anger there. All lulz. But yeah, it'll fuck your sleep up and if that's not something you're used to... Eh, well, watch for it. 

2. Emotional Numbness. This... is on and off for me. I really haven't seen it in huge amounts, and sometimes not at all, it mostly affects the way I write about things. It does, I admit, make it easier for me to think things out without my judgement being clouded by emotions like Jealousy, Anger, or Lust. (Again, lack of sex-drive which is awesome) However, there are times during the frame of time where the medication has begun to slow down and become less effective where I'll be even more emotional than I would be normally. During these moments, I've also noted a distinct 'Fog' in my head. At that point I will speak without thought, I cannot concentrate my thoughts, and I begin to lose myself to... the feeling. It's very similar to feeling high, but without all the giggling. 

3. Er... Honestly, that's about it for -my- side effects. I admit, I won't do a lot of the stuff I used to like quite as much. That might also be due to current personal developments in my life, and lack of people to speak too, or it could simply be because there's other shit that needs to be done and the things I like are being placed on the backburner until -everything- is done. Everything is never done. Hah!


So, in essence, the medication has it's fair share of consequences but it's still extremely useful in this situation. Sadly, the reason I even decided to get this medication has found reason to, not hate me, but to find little to speak to me about currently. It's sad, due to the personal change, but understandable (To a degree. I'm still unsure of what exactly occured to cause such a drastic shift in dynamic. I've a few theories, some involve close friends of myself, or advice given. Perhaps something I've done before these events that I'm unaware of.) Regardless, it's not a situation that needs to be too well known, it is something that'll eventually be resolved one way or another. A painful period, yes, but then I've lost far more important things in my life and continued on so don't worry too much, for those few that pay attention.

Oh, and dragon girl... I know your real name, your username is forgotten, but you know who I'm talking about. Canada, New York, Msn, uh... Differing Religion... >.> 'Noo' I'm not sure which way I should say it anymore. BUT DAMNIT, YOU'RE THE ONLY ONE THAT COMMENTED ON MY LAST POST SO YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE!

I haven't seen you on Skype, man, you should totally use that thing. We should talk more. Hahah.