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Getting rid of some old pictures, my face mostly, and doing a bit of clean-up over here. Plans are being made.

That is all. 
Alright, so I don't want to post this on Facebook because... I got a -lot- if idiot family members that like to take things the wrong way. Currently, the concerta has certainly worn off as I took it yesterday and in the morning around 21 hours ago. 

Now, I will say this. Concerta has a lot of fucking side-effects. Some good, some bad. It really depends on your view of that medication.

Pros-

1. More Focus, the ability to do shit that you normally wouldn't want to do (And for guys with ADHD, that makes things nearly impossible. We've the ability to see a much larger picture, and a memory for things we enjoy (IE: English and History for myself) but when it comes to shit we don't like... Forget about it.)

2. Loss of appetite. I should note, that this is a benefit to myself while it might not be to other people. I've lost about 20 pounds in less than a month, I haven't stopped eating, but I'm not actually hungry anymore. After I take my medication, I honestly lose all appitite and I'll have to actually push myself to get some food. To me, that means less calories, more water, no fast food, and very few sodas in comparison to before. I'd state that, by the end of Feb, I may very well be down to 170 pounds depending on how often we'll be doing PT this next month. 

3. Loss of Sexual Desire. Now, this, for me, was a huge one. I'm not going to get too personal with it, but I will say a lot of things I did was due to a large amount of lust that would completely destroy most reasonable thoughts from my head until it was sated. My mind was, if I was with my significant other, I needed a bit of lay at least once each day. That, of course, did not happen. That wasn't a very great state of mind to be in, it may have been due to ADHD, or maybe I've just got a naturally powerful libido. Either way, I haven't really even looked at porn since I've started taking the medication. Indeed, probably the biggest positive of it all. 

Edit:--
4. I forget this one... Hyperactivity has lessened. When I'm under the influence of this medication (Unless some event has severely pissed me off to the point of hunting them down and killing them for fucking with my family *cough*) I do stay fairly even. By fairly even, my voice rarely raises to any real degree other than normal speech, I don't jump up and do something completely inpulsive and random, and finally... I, er, I don't walk as fast. Now, that last portion might not seem 'WOW' but you need to realize that when I go somewhere, I'll take two steps at a time, I'll fly down the stairs, I'll walk at a near jogging pace to wherever I go, and I'll drive several miles over the speed limit when I'm not paying attention. This is due to a -need- to get to wherever I'm going right -then.- Hell, I'm known to drive short distances on base, or was, I don't really even do that anymore. 

In essence, I no longer rush to my destination and I take it at a leisurely pace (Unless I need to pee. In which case, get the fuck out of my way.)
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Cons.

1. Insomnia. Now, this actually isn't an issue with myself because I've -never- slept with any type of schedule. I'd sleep when I sleep and I'd wake when I wake. Obviously, due to my job, I'm almost always up by 5:30 on the weekdays but there are times, like tonight, that I might wake up before 12' clock... Though, I'm slightly annoyed because I was woken by a person that went to sleep right after texting me. That was some BS, man. Wake me up and then you go to sleep. D< But nah, no serious anger there. All lulz. But yeah, it'll fuck your sleep up and if that's not something you're used to... Eh, well, watch for it. 

2. Emotional Numbness. This... is on and off for me. I really haven't seen it in huge amounts, and sometimes not at all, it mostly affects the way I write about things. It does, I admit, make it easier for me to think things out without my judgement being clouded by emotions like Jealousy, Anger, or Lust. (Again, lack of sex-drive which is awesome) However, there are times during the frame of time where the medication has begun to slow down and become less effective where I'll be even more emotional than I would be normally. During these moments, I've also noted a distinct 'Fog' in my head. At that point I will speak without thought, I cannot concentrate my thoughts, and I begin to lose myself to... the feeling. It's very similar to feeling high, but without all the giggling. 

3. Er... Honestly, that's about it for -my- side effects. I admit, I won't do a lot of the stuff I used to like quite as much. That might also be due to current personal developments in my life, and lack of people to speak too, or it could simply be because there's other shit that needs to be done and the things I like are being placed on the backburner until -everything- is done. Everything is never done. Hah!


So, in essence, the medication has it's fair share of consequences but it's still extremely useful in this situation. Sadly, the reason I even decided to get this medication has found reason to, not hate me, but to find little to speak to me about currently. It's sad, due to the personal change, but understandable (To a degree. I'm still unsure of what exactly occured to cause such a drastic shift in dynamic. I've a few theories, some involve close friends of myself, or advice given. Perhaps something I've done before these events that I'm unaware of.) Regardless, it's not a situation that needs to be too well known, it is something that'll eventually be resolved one way or another. A painful period, yes, but then I've lost far more important things in my life and continued on so don't worry too much, for those few that pay attention.

Oh, and dragon girl... I know your real name, your username is forgotten, but you know who I'm talking about. Canada, New York, Msn, uh... Differing Religion... >.> 'Noo' I'm not sure which way I should say it anymore. BUT DAMNIT, YOU'RE THE ONLY ONE THAT COMMENTED ON MY LAST POST SO YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE!

I haven't seen you on Skype, man, you should totally use that thing. We should talk more. Hahah.
I've come to find out that those I do anything for really aren't there when I need help. I've my normal friends, sure, I've my grandma. Those I've taken care of, though, the ones I help whenever they need it, and done so many times, they don't really care.

I haven't felt this depressed in a long time. Drinking helps, though I refuse to drink too often. I'm okay around people, but I'm always alone at some point during the day and I find more and more things.

I'm losing it, I know I am, but it sucks to know you're only around to keep someone from feeling alone but when they have more people in their life, you're cast off to the side.

And, I know, when those people leave Ill be spoken too again, more frequently. They'll be depressed, sad they're gone again, and once more I''ll be nothing more than that crutch.

And I'll be dumb enough to keep it up.

I'm losing touch with reality.
Well, the man who raised me since I was but a wee toddler passed yesterday (March 26th 2013) leaving my great grandmother by herself at the house and... Well, I'm not entirely sure what to make of things. It's been a little more than a week since the hospital messed up, bad. He ought to have been fine, he was in a nursing home for rehab after having a bypass done and, it appeared, he'd be out of there within a month or so.

That would have been great! After all, the operation had been a success!

But no, he ended up getting pneumonia from un-thickened water (He couldn't drink fluids, and it's thought that was how he ended up getting Pneumonia) Biggest pain, though, was from the fact that he lost the breathing tube to his nose at some point during his stay at the hospital and instead of having him on some type of monitor, they only checked every 2 hours.

Yup, a 79 year old man with pneumonia and coming off of a quadruple bypass, didn't have a single monitor on him.

The lack of oxygen caused his heart to slow to a stop, oxygen couldn't get to the brain, and by the time they found him, and brought his heart back; he was brain dead.

Well, not completely brain dead, he still made motions that were similar to what he had done in life. He shook a man's hand, pointed at my sister and shook the finger at her as if he was saying 'You look a lot like a man named Perky Duke.' Of course he said no such thing, but it was still better than what everyone that he'd manage.

In the end, he'd never have been the same old-man that I knew and loved, and pneumonia took him yesterday at 5:23. The Funeral's being held Friday, and that means I got another drive back home to make. (Thankfully I was there with him the last 8 days and... Got to say goodbye to his body. He looked like he was sleeping.)
Stuff...
  • Listening to: Poison - Alice Cooper
  • Reading: Fanfiction. (Igivenofucks)
  • Watching: No cable, sadly.
  • Playing: Bonetown (Igivenofucks)
  • Eating: ... Eat?
  • Drinking: Water
Blah
Man o' man. Life's a fragile thing, it takes only a small push, a small accident, and that life can be destroyed. Sad but true, hold your family and friends close and don't cut the bonds that bind you. You might regret it forever.
I figure that's enough of the crazy post. Dark-shiekah, as nice as it is to get a favorite or a comment on a picture of mine, do me a favor and don't add me to 'Friend's Oc's' I'm not your friend, nor will I be your friend again. I admit that I was wrong for a lot of the things I did, but illogical as my hatred for you may be, it is there. I don't want to see a thing from you on anything involving my page. De-watch me after this, you are not to be a part of my life at all, in anyway, even if you're trying to put yourself there.

Don't comment either. I'm still having a massive fallout due to my actions, be happy I'm at least nice enough to keep some things from public view.

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Jay, I apologize for not being on Skype as actively. I'm focusing heavily on fixing things right now and my primary focus is on those things. Mistakes I've made that need to be erased and done over again. I've not been as angry lately, or as... Well, I've been depressed quite a few times but usually do to single things. Not on a whole. Don't take what I'm doing as symbolism of your importance to me. I haven't lied when I said you're like a brother to me, but right now, I don't have the attention span, nor the skills, to really involve myself in too much. I've loosened ties with a lot of people as of late in order to work on my problems and it's helping.

Makes things simplier for me. But note, I said Loosened, not cut. Give me time, Jay, I'll be back around soon enough. Sorry for doing that to you, man, you very important to me as a friend and as a brother. Just want you to know I haven't forgotten you.

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As for everything else... Eh. *Waves hand* Like I said, I'm not half-crazed anymore. I'm not really losing my mind, I've lost a good bit of anger, don't feel depressed or guilty anymore, I've stopped lying nearly entirely. A few little white lies to friends in real life from time to time, or exaggerating my awesomeness, but nothing severe.

As before, I don't see many people really seeing this or saying much. People don't know me well enough, I know those that will see it and say nothing, I also know those that will (Or maybe I hope they will) All and all, this is mostly to a few people whose been named and maybe a bit to myself. Man, it's hard to get my thoughts on paper...

I just had a tough conversation and I said a few stupid things, some of them weren't really accurate, others were. Communication and a lack of understanding is a pain but I'll keep working to make things better and right, and yes, I have issues with things sometimes but sorespots take time to heal (Damned shoulder still hasn't healed.) I miss how things were, I missed having the security of knowing someone would -always- love me and a future that looked somewhat bright.

I hate not knowing what will happen next, I loathe it actually, I've always tried to see the next move, to see what's going to happen and push for it but I'm in the dark... Ironic that I've created dark characters when I'm afraid of it. Just finding these things out  now, maybe I created Midnight's powers as a way to cope with my own fear of not knowing. Or Morphio's ability to see into the future (And even change it)

Wishes that all people have... Going back in time and changing the shit you did. Now that's an ability, right? The question really is sometimes... What could I have done? How could I have stopped all of it... what could things have been like if so and so never happened, or if I was there constantly.

Don't take this as a depressing journal, it's not really, it's more nostalgic, thoughtful for me... I don't feel depressed, not really, I feel lost and I feel powerless to change things. I've used too many cheat codes in games and I can't seem to fathom the fact life doesn't have them. Man, I gotta get over being lazy and just blaze on the hard path...

But thoughts of my age as well come to mind, calloused thoughts, I'm too young to be bogged down, and to wait and see. "Why should I wait! I'm doing all the work!" Thoughts that are stupid as you look deeper into them but sometimes I do want to feel as if I'm not stupid, that everything I say isn't -wrong- yet, it seems like I'm never right. I'll keep working and I'll keep trying.

I've got other things on my mind but until they're worked out, it's best to keep them under wraps.
I've half lost my mind at this point... And I doubt I'll get any real comments here but Imma share some of my life right now.

I've done some -stupid- shit and I lost someone extremely important to me.
I broke my computer.

Now for the good news.

I got a new computer for 330 dollars, five percent off because it was the last one (The display model)
I finally managed to Reenlist.
I'm coming back to Georgia in Dec. Or earlier (Earlier more than likely for PCS leave. 30 days right there.)

This might seem awesome! I've been gone for two and a half years... But uh... I'm still hating life right now. We'll see where everything goes... the two people who may even care to fucking read this.

Yeah, I've got few friends left and for the most part. No one gives a flying fuck what I do or say, I just -exist.- Not complaining, nah, I'll live. Going to prove a damn point, though.
Well, I spent a good bit of time on leave. About 15 days, 14 or so with mmmy sweet-heart :iconed-the-fourth: I looove that chick-a-dee. We played Borderlands, went to the beach, got me a tan and got me some edible Ed-the-fourth.

All and all, it was a pretty nice leave. I had a lot of fun, I got to see someone I care deeply for and... there really weren't any issues. The last few times I've seen her have been awesome, but there were some issues that happened. This time... it had been nothing but awesome-sauce.

Saw Spiderman, too... That shit was awesome.
Hohohoho, am I going to blatently advertise a roleplaying site? Why yes, yes I am. You see, this nice little group is run by my girlfriend and my girlfriend's pimp. :iconed-the-fourth: and her pimp :iconunknown-variable: Now, what you may not realize is... My two lovely friends here are quite the for thinkers and idea makers.

What does this mean?

It means they have plans already in place months to come. This roleplaying site, once it truly begins, will have a point system (YES) a way for you to do your own art, get your own views, and earn points to become, what many may believe, the best pokemon trainer of all times! That's right ladies and gentlemen, With Code Mythos, you too can catch them all!

Ash Ketchum won't have SHIT on you.

No, but on a serious note. This has very well done. The story? Well, I can't really tell you about that, can I? But if your curiosity is piked, and my attempt at humor has succeeded; please, I implore you, go to this group :iconcode-mythos: and read and see what you think. The world is vast, the possibilities endless, and it's a shit ton better than Devotia if you're a writer. I mean, honestly, what do authors like us have to do to get a bit of respect?

Well that's easy. JOIN :iconcode-mythos: and be a part of a journey... A journey... of awesome.

This was paid for, and created, by Midnari Inc. All right reserved. Now get the fuck off my lawn.
Or the Feline UpRising. No matter what you call it... we're all in trouble. While I'd like to believe it's simply a few kittens stuttering about with their paws on their Masters keyboard, it is... doubtful. What we have now is chaos. If you have a Cat of any-kind, lock it in a kennel and hold it prisoner. The Cats have Fella, we have our own miniature brats to take care of.

Be aware, there have been reports that the Cats have taken several of their Masters places. Whatever may have happened to their master is... Well there are no reports of bodies but one cannot look past the worst case out of hope. The point remains, defend yourselves, lock your cats up, and make sure you take up arms NOW. If you bend to the will of the Feline's then what else will you have? We're already nearly their pets, the only think we have is the ability to deny it...

But if this continues then there will be no denial! There will be no hope! These evil, furry creatures will take us, chain us, and force us to feed them the most expensive of snacks... Wet Food. Do you know how many humans will go bankrupt if these CRETINS have their way? Well do not tolerate it, do not take it, fight! Take up arms and show these fools how to fight.

There are several weapons I'd suggest using. Catnip is one of the simplest. Get those little fuckers high! The higher they are the better. If they're rolling around on their back, gnawing at the carpet, or singing 'Twinkle twinkle little - Squirrel!' then you're probably good to snatch the little bastard up and throw him in a closet. Catnip is fairly easy to obtain as well, you can grow it like a weed, or buy it at a small Supermarket. Just remember, the good stuff is usually at a pet store.

The next option is laser pointers. Why laser pointers, you may be asking, well it's quite obvious. Cats can't stop them from moving but they feel the urge to do so every time. They'll run, jump, hiss, slam their heads into walls, climb a ceiling and hang upside down, all for the beautiful red dot. These little toys are great if you're attempting to escape the wrath of your feline foe or if you're leading the fool into a nearby closet.

If you can't get your hands on a laser pointer, light works nearly as well. Simply find a reflective surface (Watch, Mirror, glasses, anything the will reflect light.) Just make sure there is some sort of light and it's enough to reflect across the floor. You won't have as much maneuverability as a laser pointer but it still just might save your life.

The final weapon is Tuna. It smells like dirty :iconmajorgeneralwhiskers:, it's gross, and you really don't want to touch it. Cats, on the other hand, believe it to be quite the opposite; It smells like God, it's beautiful, and they really want to omnomnomnom it. Which is why you yell, at the top of your lungs, "HERE KITTY, KITTY, I HAVE FISHY FISH IN A CAN!" And then run quickly to wherever you wish to lock your pet up. You crack the can open, push the contents into some sort of bowl, and wait. Once your cat has jogged up to you, brushing against your leg, attempting to seduce you into believing he, or she, is oh so innocent, you'll strike! Run out, shut the door, close the cage, do whatever you need to but make SURE he's locked away.

Not, none of these things are at all dangerous for your cat. I cannot give you weapons to physically harm these cats due to the fact that the LAW is in the pocket of FUR. Cruelty towards your servants, will make you their servants far sooner, and in far more unpleasant way. Simply attempt to cage, or lock the little bastards away until the uprising has been stomped out! These monsters don't have thumbs, it won't be long until they can no longer be arsed to use the space key; forget shifting!

I've said my peace, fellow humans, it is now up to you to fight back against your pets. They're small... but they're smart and dangerous.

And hopefully...

Felines are simply talking about our House Cats... God forbid their cousins join the fight. If that happens... We are all doomed.

                                                                                                                                        Signed
                                                                                                                                                                                  
                                                                                                                                                

                                                                                                                                        Midnari Midnight Cateran

P.S.

Some Cats aren't furry.
This is just a random journal. Um... Lessie. Recently...

Well, my unit's deployed to Afghanistan and I'm stuck on Rear D due to a force cap. (Look it up.) I've been on Rear D for about two months now, maybe three... Uhm...

I've managed to actually start looking good in the opinion of several of my NCO's. I've bettered myself as a soldier and I just need a few more months time in grade before I get promoted. If they could give out waivers I'd probably get one but they're not really doing those on Rear D. I don't think it's allowed which is really irksome.

I did get the day off yesterday for having a good looking uniform which made me happy. <.< Not gonna lie, I wasted that day off like a mother fucker and slept from 9:15 to 1630 and then I slept again from 1900 to about 0100 (Twelve on and off as I texted and passed out and then texted again.)  Of course Pt wasn't going on yesterday as the parents wanted to take their kids to their first day of school. (Cuuute. I should totally spawn my own child... And the world shall end, bwahahahahah.)

And most of this is just useless information that no one cares about but whatever. I figure I could actually put up a real journal entry for once and update people.

I have a Usaeuro license. (Let's me drive in Europe.) And I'm probably going to have a car in the next few weeks which will be pretty rocking. The biggest issue I need to take care of now is my finacial issues. I'm running out of money too quick before a pay check and that's not going to work so I'll need to get off my lazy ass and take care of it soon. Really soon.

Which probably means I'm going to have to really budget once I get paid. No more buying really awesome shit. Nope. Just the basics and getting, you know, a monthly unlimited internet connection would probably help a lot too. Paying out the ass on internet is not the way to go. (Seriously, 1Gig a day for 5-6 bucks? Bullshit son.)

With any luck Tks will be getting fucked over now that Libya has closed trades with Europe meaning <.< YOU FUCKERS CAN'T MAKE ME PAY 50 GODDAMN EURO AND MAKE ME PAY LIKE... 70 DOLLARS! HAH, YOU'LL BE GOING IN THE HOLE, BITCHES! FUCK YEAH!

So uh, <.< >.> I'm not happy by that all. Nope.~ We'll see what occurs but I see good things for Americans living in Europe on the horizon. :DD

Another thing I need to do is start working on college. I applied for a TA Application form (Which is just me signing my name and waiting to get a form back.) But it seems like I missed this semister of school, but that's fine, I can still apply for the next set of courses and as long as I've made the attempt to get into the school I'll be fine. I shouldn't need the TA form since, you know, I paid out my ass for the GI Bill. I should have that pay for my schooling. Blah. We'll see what occurs, yeah?
I love you, Ed. I really do. I can tell you this in person or over the phone. I could tell you through a messenger or through an email. I honestly dunno where the hell I'm going with this but I just want you to know I do love you. Christiann. You mean the world to me. I just want you to know that.
Alright, It's been awhile since I typed in a journal. I've got some minor shit going on in my life and some major shit going on in my life. Someone really close to me did something really stupid towards me. I love this person quite a bit. And it's done with now. We'll see what happens in thirty days. That's when I'll really decide on what to do. The biggest thing that's happened to me so far is actually going to see ed-the-fourth again. The last time being in december.

God it's good to be able to touch her again, kiss her, and hug her. I love her, I really do. I don't think she realizes that. Maybe she will one day. Meh, honestly that's about it. I don't have much else to say. I just felt I needed an update on the journal. (Yes, because people should know about my life. <-< >->.) Ah, by the way. If a certain someone reads this... Keep the shit up and I'll be letting everyone know.
1) Name: Dustin
2) Name Backwards: Nitsud
3) Were you named after anyone?: No
4) Does your name mean anything?: Meh
5) Nick Name(s): D, Dean.
6) Screen Name(s): Midnari, Ecoti
7) Date Of Birth: 3 Nov 1990
8) Place of Birth: Carrollton
9) Nationality: American
10) Current Location: Fucking Germany
11) Sign: Scorpio
12) Religion: Dunno anymore.
13) Height: 5' 11"
14) Weight: 186
15) Shoe Size: 11 1/2
16) Hair colour: black
17) Eye colour: Varies. Hazel.
18) What do you look like?: … I'm a sexy man.
19) Innie or Outie?: Innie
20) Righty, Lefty, both : Ambidextrous
21) Gay, Straight, Bi, or Other?: Straight
22) Best friend(s): Josh, Rod, and Mike.
23) Best friend you trust the most: Josh and Rod.
24) Best friends {your sex}: Rod, Josh
25) Best friends of the opposite sex:  Um, I don't know?
26) Best Bud(s): Best friend is the same thing. Stop being stupid.
27) Boyfriend / Girlfriend: Christy. Fuck with it.
28) Crush: Is it a crush or is it love? Christianne.
29) Parent(s): Richard and Jennifer. Is… is this some way to stalk me?
30) Worst Enemy: None?
31) Favorite on-line Guy(s): Uh… Hm…
32) Favorite on-line Girl(s): Christy and Soar. I should talk to Soar more; it's been awhile.
33) Funniest friend: Mike
34) Craziest friend: Rod
35) Advice Friend: Who? Sorry, I'm the advice friend.
36) Loudest Friend: Rod
37) Person you cry with: I don't cry?

Do You Have...

38) Any sisters: Yes
39) Any brothers: Yes
40) Any pets: No
41) A Disease: No
42) A Pager: No (Didn't those things go extinct in 2000?
43) A Personal phone line: No
44) A Cell phone: Kind of.
45) A Lava lamp: Not anymore.
46) A Pool or hot tub: Nah.
47) A Car: … I miss my baby.

Describe Your...

48) Personality: I'm a legit asshole. I'll tell you something straight up and I'll make sure you know I hate you. If I like you I'm a nice guy, I swear a lot, but I'm really fun to be around or so I've been told. I also like to be playful in mean and nice ways. (A small amount of pain is nice, right?)

49) Driving: Normal
50) Car or one you want: Jaguar
51) Room: It's about bare minus a game system, microwave, bed, and tv.
52) What's missing?: Um… Awesome decorations?

53) School: None.
54) Bed: Army style single. Yeaaah, fuck with that!


Relationship with your parent(s):

55) Dad: Wow, I hated my dad before. Actually, he's a good man with bad tendancies. Didn't raise me but he cares in his own way.

Mom: She's a manipulative slut. I won't lie. But she cares as well, or she says she does. I have no real anger towards her anymore.

56) Believe in yourself: Yeah, in a way.
57) Do you believe in love at first sight?: Nah.
58) Consider yourself a good listener: Actually, shoulda kept the the first one. Yeah, if they speak English.
60) Get Along with your parents: When I'm around them we're the same as friends. Not really a parent kid relationship anymore.
61) Save your e-mail conversations: Mhm.
62) Pray: Every so often.
63) Believe in reincarnation: No
64) Like to make fun of people: Yup.
65) Like to talk on the phone: I will but it varies on who I'm talking to and the reason why I'm talking to them.
66) Like to eat?: We have to eat dear questionnaire, if we didn't like it we'd die, right?
67) Like to drive: God… I love it so.
68) Get motion sickness: Nah.
69) Eat the stems of broccoli: Oddly… I ate it and I liked it.
70) Eat Chicken fingers with a fork: No.
71) Dream in color: I think so.

72) Type with your fingers on home row: Yeah.

73) Sleep with a stuffed animal: Nope.  


What Is…?


74) Right next to you:  My laptop.

75) On the walls of your room: Nothing.

76) On your mouse pad: Don't have one.

77) Your dream car: Any type at this point.

78) Your dream date: McDonalds!


79) Your dream honeymoon spot: Disney world. What's better than fucking next to Mickey Mouse while he video tapes it?

80) Your dream husband/wife: Jessica Simpson… No, wait. I'll go with Christy.

81) Your bedtime: I don't have one.

82) Under your bed: Nothing.

83) The single most important question: What will kill me first? Old age or Cancer?

84) Your bad time of the day: Still the morning.

85) Your worst fear(s): Spiders.

86) The weather like: Cloudy and snowy.

87) The time?: 8'o 7

88) The date?: Dec. 29

89) The best trick you ever played on someone: Dunno.

90) The weirdest food or drink that you eat: Peanut Punch. Think you Judy!

91) Theme Song: The Animal inside – Three Days Grace



92) The hardest thing about growing up: Going from one place to another.


93) Your funniest experience: Beating Pikachu with Pikachu.


94) Your scariest moment: Dunno. I tend to forget things.


95) The silliest thing you've said: Apparently. 'He's cocky because he's a scientific impossibility. I'd be cocky too.'


96) The funniest or most desperate thing you've done to get the attention of the opposite sex?: Flashed girls when I was in the 3rd grade.


97) The scariest thing that's ever happened while with your friend(s): DEA when I was driving home after dropping Rod off and his friend in the front seat had weed on her without me knowing.

98) The worst feeling in the world: My friggen knee.


99) The best feeling in the world: Being able to hold Christy… That was amazing to me.
"Smile through the darkness, fight through the pain
Let not thy songs, fall to the rain.
Can you hear it? Karma is beckoning for those who wrong
Soon the bells shall gong and all will be done
Smile through the darkness And grow stronger
You shall last longer
For the Shadows kiss
You won't succumb Eyes open, pain etched within you
Fight free and you will soon see
The light is never far from you too"

Someone told me to put it up.
  • Listening to: The buzz of a computer
  • Reading: Iunno
  • Watching: The screen?
  • Playing: Nothing
  • Eating: Nothing
  • Drinking: What the hell kinda questions are these?
"Heart chilling cold
Nothing so bold

Midnight in the evening
No way I'm sleeping

I hear the damn clock
Some want it under lock

Signaling for bed
But I'm not near dead

Boredom reins with me
But no one can see

People just want to let me be"

You try writing under these circumstances.
  • Listening to: The buzz of a computer
  • Reading: Iunno
  • Watching: The screen?
  • Playing: Nothing
  • Eating: Nothing
  • Drinking: What the hell kinda questions are these?
1) Name: Dustin
2) Name Backwards: Nitsud
3) Were you named after anyone?: No
4) Does your name mean anything?: Meh
5) Nick Name(s): D
6) Screen Name(s): Midnari
7) Date Of Birth: Nov Third, 1990
8) Place of Birth: Carrollton
9) Nationality: I'm… uh… White? American… your momma's white!
10) Current Location: On earth.
11) Sign: Scorpio
12) Religion: Christian (To an extent)
13) Height: 6'
14) Weight: 180
15) Shoe Size: 11 1/2
16) Hair colour: black
17) Eye colour: Green/Hazel/Gray/Blue
18) What do you look like?: I have a picture… check it out, eh?
19) Innie or Outie?: Innie
20) Righty, Lefty, both : Ambidextrous
21) Gay, Straight, Bi, or Other?: Straight
22) Best friend(s): Josh and Rodriquez… and one else? No, good.
23) Best friend you trust the most: Josh
24) Best friends {your sex}: Rod, Josh
25) Best friends of the opposite sex: Melinda (Where ever the cow went) Nina, and… that's about it… Don't get along with the opposite sex much.
26) Best Bud(s): …Eh? Did a retard make this fucking survey?
27) Boyfriend / Girlfriend: I only have one girl, Lee.
28) Crush: Jade/Lee/Anna/Annie/Anna Lee
29) Parent(s): None of your fucking business.
30) Worst Enemy: The camera.
31) Favorite on-line Guy(s): Justin
32) Favorite on-line Girl(s): Meh (If I ain't mentioned, neither or you.)
33) Funniest friend: Joe
34) Craziest friend: Rod
35) Advice Friend: I don't seek advice… I keep shit inside.
36) Loudest Friend: Rod
37) Person you cry with: The well is closed.

Do You Have...

38) Any sisters: Yes
39) Any brothers: Yes
40) Any pets: Dog, Cat.
41) A Disease: No
42) A Pager: No (Didn't those things go extinct in 2000?
43) A Personal phone line: No
44) A Cell phone: Yeah…
45) A Lava lamp: Not no mo'
46) A Pool or hot tub: Don't I fucking wish.
47) A Car: Eh? Fuck you

Describe Your...

48) Personality: I'm me… simple, I'll tell you what I think, if you don't like it… meh, better to be honest than lie, right? I don't much care for fucking bullshit, and I probably don't much care for you if you're calling me a prick right now. That's all that you really need to know if I don't know you.

49) Driving: Normal
50) Car or one you want: Jaguar
51) Room: It's… red?
52) What's missing?: Nothing… I have the one thing that matters to me.

53) School: It's fucking… country…ie
54) Bed: Cold for the moment, but not for long.


Relationship with your parent(s):

55) Dad: Pot head mother fucker who doesn't know who his damn son is because he's high most of the fucking time.
Mom: Don't know, you'll see her before I fucking will.  

56) Believe in yourself: I believe that I might fail if that's what you mean.
57) Do you believe in love at first sight?: How 'bout at first voice?
58) Consider yourself a good listener: Cha, if they're speaking English
60) Get Along with your parents: Fuck them, they disowned me, I don't care for them. I'll tolerate them, and be as nice as possible, but I don't give a flying fuck about them in the end.
61) Save your e-mail conversations: Yep, with a certain someone.
62) Pray: No, I… kind… of… don't. I'm too damn lazy, alright?
63) Believe in reincarnation: No
64) Like to make fun of people: Not really.
65) Like to talk on the phone: No, only with one person.
66) Like to eat?: Meh, food is food.
67) Like to drive: Yeah, but if I have to be lazy and sit back, that's cool too.
68) Get motion sickness: Nah.
69) Eat the stems of broccoli: No, I don't eat many veggies, unless they're in my salsa.
70) Eat Chicken fingers with a fork: No… only retarded people do that.
71) Dream in color: I fucking hope so.

72) Type with your fingers on home row: Touch type? Yeah.

73) Sleep with a stuffed animal: I don't, but my girl does.


What Is…?


74) Right next to you: Cell phone, Glass, speaker, Computer, webcam (Need to get rid of that thing. )

75) On the walls of your room: Nothing anymore.

76) On your mouse pad: A mouse.

77) Your dream car: A car is a car.

78) Your dream date: A date… where I get to hold the person I'm with.


79) Your dream honeymoon spot: Eh… Wherever the person I love will be the happiest.

80) Your dream husband/wife:  Lee.

81) Your bedtime: Whenever they come in yelling at me to get some sleep (… Well, no, but I'd like people to think I listen.)

82) Under your bed: Dust bunnies… and Iunno what is under the floor boards.

83) The single most important question: I don't question things.

84) Your bad time of the day: Fucking morning.

85) Your worst fear(s): Losing the person I love.

86) The weather like: Dark, and clear… the stars are coming out.

87) The time?: Eight forty two

88) The date?: July 28 (Anniversary)

89) The best trick you ever played on someone: I have one… can't remember though.

90) The weirdest food or drink that you eat: Mayonnaise with fries

91) Theme Song: The Animal inside – Three Days Grace



92) The hardest thing about growing up: Knowing not many people really care about you.


93) Your funniest experience: Can't think of many…


94) Your scariest moment: Eh… rather not say. But it happened in the last two months.


95) The silliest thing you've said: Fuck you, I can't fucking remember this shit.


96) The funniest or most desperate thing you've done to get the attention of the opposite sex?: Nothing, I don't give a flying fuck about what people think of me.


97) The scariest thing that's ever happened while with your friend(s): Don't remember anything…

98) The worst feeling in the world: The pain in your chest when someone hurts you.


99) The best feeling in the world: Knowing that you're loved by at least one person.